nAnKuraNaisa

2010-08-18T15:47:00.002+08:00

"Today is the day my life begins,
All my life it've been just me,
Today i become a man,
Today i become accountable,
To someone other then myself.
To all the possibilities that our future has to offer,
Together no matter what happens,
I will be ready.
For anything, for everything,
To take on life, to take on love,
To take on all the possibilities and responsibility."

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Its been quite a long while since i last posted, o well time flies, i am entering NS in a few days time, may these 2 years be enriching in experience and also our lives. =)

2009-07-12T23:48:00.002+08:00

i know its been so long since i posted =/ somehow the pokemon song is quite nice and has a ring in my head so i just wrote it down here haha. been busy with sch and stuff don really have the time to post.. will do so once i am more free-ed up ^^

to all whom it may concern, take care of urselves =)

2009-06-01T19:02:00.001+08:00

Every Trainer has a choice
To listen to that voice inside.
I know the battle may be long,
Winners may have come and gone -
but I will carry on!
Yeah, this dream will last forever,
This dream will never die,
We will rise to meet the challenge every time.
Yeah, this dream keeps us together,
This shows that you and I -
Will be the best that the world's ever seen,
Because we always will follow this dream!

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted
But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
And they turn your dream to shame
He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came
And still I dream he'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather
I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed.

2009-05-12T16:19:00.001+08:00

i will and want to accept myself as of now, even though i will be hurt by those heartless glances, but also, i understand that at the same time gentle glances exist. even though it's like this, i still want to be here. Because here is, the place i exist. Whats wrong with falling down, because as long as i stand up again, it will be just fine. if you look up at the sky after falling down,The blue sky is also today, stretching limitlessly and smiles at me.People shouldn't dwell on the past. Its enough to try your best in all that you're doing now.

2009-04-29T11:16:00.001+08:00

There are two days in every week about which we should not worry.
Two days which should be kept free from fear and apprehension.

One of these days is yesterday with its mistakes and cares,
Its faults and blunders,
Its aches and pains.

Yesterday has passed forever beyond our control.
All the money in the world cannot bring back yesterday.
We cannot undo a single act we performed.
We cannot erase a single word we said.

Yesterday is gone.
The other day we should not worry about is tomorrow.
With its possible adversities,
Its burdens,
Its large promise and poor performance.
Tomorrow is also beyond our immediate control.
Tomorrow's Sun will rise,
either in splendor or behind a mask of clouds,
but it will rise.

Until it does, we have no stake in tomorrow, for it is yet unborn.
This just leaves only one day . . .

Today.
Any person can fight the battles of just one day.
It is only when you and I add the burdens of those two awful eternity's -yesterday and tomorrow that we break down.
It is not the experience of today that drives people mad.
It is the remorse or bitterness for something which happened yesterday and the dread of what tomorrow may bring.
Let us therefore live but one day at a time.

2009-04-18T22:06:00.003+08:00

When you actually lose something, thats the only time when you would actually think through your actions, your life, your entirety.

Whats most important in life for you?
What do you want most in your life?
you desire anything?
how hard would u work for it?

memories is the only things thats precious. given a time a date an event that takes place. all would be stored as memories.

Sooner or later we all discover that the important moments in life are not the advertised ones, not the birthdays, the graduations, the weddings, not the great goals achieved. The real milestones are less prepossessing. They come to the door of memory unannounced, stray dogs that amble in, sniff around a bit and simply never leave. Our lives are measured by these.

be wary of wats around you, your friends, your loved ones, your family, even those strangers that may linger around you.

some ignorant glances.. some caring glances. what is important is those around u that remains true despite the situation however it may be...

Never be blinded by your targets and forgo whatever that affects others in ur quest to attain what you wan. Be considerate to those that helped you, Though it may take a while for u to attain what you wan through this way. IMO its still the most benefiting for both parties. Love and care cannot be replaced with material goods.

Only ones true heart may touch our angelic souls.

2009-03-25T20:49:00.005+08:00

Today, someone maybe insignificant, turns 19~

its actually a sad mood to start with, went with faction(something like a guild in game), for raids... drop something i wan, but its not given to me =/ although i know the list is dam long and they normally give those tankers first, but before the raid can actually start, we must farm stones which drops from mobs. total 240... no one did only me i spend over 10 hours just to farm so many. does this effort get recognized? no they give u sth thats actually urs to begain with and treat it as payment for it. some of u may nt understand but those who play with me knows.

left 5mins to my bday as i type this sentence. for the things that i may say, i am not demanding, just giving the best of my abilities, whether is it to help, or protect. the past year, been through alot, thought through alot, now going into my final year all the best. =)

of course to find happiness, little things in life are always important...

t really is the little things
That mean the most of all...
The "let me help you with that" things
That may seem very small
The "I'll be glad to do it" things
That make your cares much lighter,
The "laugh with me, it's funny" things
That make your outlook brighter...

The "never mind the trouble" things,
The "yes, I understand,"
The interest and encouragement
In everything you've planned
It really is the little things,
The friendly word or smile,
That add such happiness to life
And make it more worth while.

have you thought through, how many people in your life actually does make an impact deep enough for you to remember them for eternity?

give and take is always a cycle, think through which people are really ur friends. who treats u well and who just takes advantage of u.

forgive forgo forget. remember for the present doesn't repeat itself.

HAHA ryan u ah send me some weird happy bday song haha so cute -_-!!! i wonder how will the day go about ^_^ tonight shall blog again hahaz tcccc

First wish - All my friends and loved ones to be happy and healthy foreverrrrrrrrrrrrr, may all the sweet relationships stay candilicious!!! =p

2009-03-13T20:36:00.007+08:00

Have you ever thought through ur life? what you wana do what you wana be
from time to time we often tell ourselves we wan be this and that
how often do we actually make it worthwhile?

Have u felt urself left all alone?

Its time u take a look around you, and look around.. there are many that cares for u,
however, do you even give them a look, a thought, even a sec of ur time to notice their presence.
Have you been there for them for they have been for you?

Watch the video below, you will understand what i mean... if you don feel anything from the video, please carry on ur life as you are, if you do, do something, anything to change.

This is a story about a gift from the heart.. nt sure if i post it before but ya do have a read =)

According to legend, a young man while roaming the desert came across a spring of delicious crystal-clear water. The water was so sweet he filled his leather canteen so he could bring some back to a tribal elder who had been his teacher. After a four-day journey he presented the water to the old man who took a deep drink, smiled warmly and thanked his student lavishly for the sweet water. The young man returned to his village with a happy heart.

Later, the teacher let another student taste the water. He spat it out, saying it was awful. It apparently had become stale because of the old leather container. The student challenged his teacher: "Master, the water was foul. Why did you pretend to like it?"

The teacher replied, "You only tasted the water. I tasted the gift. The water was simply the container for an act of loving-kindness and nothing could be sweeter."

I think we understand this lesson best when we receive innocent gifts of love from young children. Whether it's a ceramic tray or a macaroni bracelet, the natural and proper response is appreciation and expressed thankfulness because we love the idea within the gift.

Gratitude doesn't always come naturally. Unfortunately, most children and many adults value only the thing given rather than the feeling embodied in it. We should remind ourselves and teach our children about the beauty and purity of feelings and expressions of gratitude. After all, gifts from the heart are really gifts of the heart.

2009-03-04T08:43:00.005+08:00

Your figure is similar to mine
My heart is shaking like i'm crying softly.

No matter what, i end up choosing the difficult path
without ever wiping the sand off my shoes
i can only live this way
i am sure that you would smile and nod in agreement

just because you are here looking at the same world as me
i continue to like you
without losing my heart in the end
you kept me alive...

2009-03-02T14:05:00.001+08:00

This is a mail that a friend forwarded to me so i shall share with you...

A holy man was having aconversation with God one day and said, '
God , I would like to know what Heaven and Hell are like.' ?

God led the holy man to two doors.
He opened one of the doors and the holy man looked in.

In the middle of the room was a large round table.
In the middle of the table was a large pot of stew,
which smelled delicious and made the holy man's mouth water.

The people sitting around the table were thin and sickly.
They appeared to be famished.
They were holding spoons with very long handles,
that were strapped to their arms and each found it impossible to reach into the pot of stew and take a spoonful.

But because the handle was longer than their arms,
they could not get the spoons back into their mouths.
The holy man shuddered at the sight of their misery !
and suffering. God said, 'You have seen Hell..'

They went to the next room and opened the door.
It was exactly the same as the first one. ?
There was the large round table with the large pot of stew which made the holy man's mouth water.
The people were equiped with the same long-handled spoons,
but herethe people were well nourished and plump,
laughing and talking.

The holy man said, 'I don't understand..'
It is simple,' said God . 'It requires but one skill. ?
You see they have learned to feed each other, while the greedy think only of themselves.'

Its estimated 93% won't forward this.
If you are one of the 7% who will, forward this with the title '7%'.
I'm in the 7% Remember that I will always share my spoon with you! ?

Friends are the family that we choose for ourselves

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Below is a poem of friendship...

Be a friend. You don't need money;
Just a disposition sunny;
Just the wish to help another
Get along some way or other;
Just a kindly hand extended
Out to one who's unbefriended;
Just the will to give or lend,
This will make you someone's friend.

Be a friend. You don't need glory.
Friendship is a simple story.
Pass by trifling errors blindly,
Gaze on honest effort kindly,
Cheer the youth who's bravely trying,
Pity him who's sadly sighing;
Just a little labor spend
On the duties of a friend.

Be a friend.
The pay is bigger
(Though not written by a figure)
Than is earned by people clever
In what's merely self-endeavor.
You'll have friends instead of neighbors
For the profits of your labors;
You'll be richer in the end
Than a prince, if you're a friend.

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Friends are precious, treasure them as i treasure u

2009-02-26T23:29:00.004+08:00

A well known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20 bill. In the room of 200, he asked. "Who would like this $20 bill?"

Hands started going up. He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you - but first, let me do this."

He proceeded to crumple the 20 dollar note up. He then asked. "Who still wants it?" Still the hands were up in the air.

"Well," he replied, "what if I do this?" He dropped it on the
ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty. "Now, who still wants it?"

Still the hands went into the air.

"My friends, you have all learned a very valuable lesson. No
matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $20.
Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless; but no matter what happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value.

Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still
priceless to those who love you. The worth of our lives comes, not in what we do or who we know, but by ...WHO WE ARE.

You are special - don't ever forget it."

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You are who u are,
For the ever changing world.
Please do not change ur caring nature,
Please do not change the way you are,
For its precious and one only to you.

2009-02-15T23:26:00.005+08:00

As long as i'm not hurting anyone, its all right not to smile.
She said as she lowered her head in shame and cried through the night.

I cling on coldly as i start to freeze,
Umbrellas don't exist in this reality of never ending rain.
To live is to fight.
For precisely that reason, i keep them hidden away.
My heart, my story
Beyond your tears, that brilliance you see,
Is the blue sky from back then reflected in a tiny window.
Ah, but i can't fly like a bird.
The pain you feel when you hurt someone...
i closed my eyes and wept, so i wouldn't forget it.

A phrase to keep as going... Good job well done get better next time

A phrase that stalls our progress... Why did this happen? explain!

A phrase that i wana say to those i care... You are loved

^_^

live onwards

2009-02-11T13:17:00.006+08:00

Sometimes i wonder, is other looks really THAT important?

imagine u marry someone who has looks and nothing else
imagine u marry someone who has no looks but everything else
one can only imagine, where in real life, it doesn't really apply.

For memories that i miss, it shall forever be etched into my heart, for thou shall not forget.
whether bad or good, may you be blessed.
live on, thats whats important.

When things go wrong as they sometimes will;
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill;
When the funds are low, and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but have to sigh;
When care is pressing you down a bit-
Rest if you must, but do not quit.

Success is failure turned inside out;
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt;
And you can never tell how close you are
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit-
It's when things go wrong that you must not quit.

Although sometimes, you may feel u are lonely.. feel free to chat
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time to time, i just feel like.. entering a world of solute for it shall nt harm nt be harmed through the blaze of a thousand blades. burning in the inferno for all shall nt see.

2009-02-05T11:01:00.004+08:00

For all that i care about,
real tears have flowed for u.

it doesn't really matter if the feelings were alive
but its different, for you it doesn't matter
i just wan u to live on,
therefore, i will always be a silent angel in the night...

to be able to help is good enough
to be able to recieve is a blessing
for hope shall not leave your side.
believe

"i want to accept the me right now,
and live on.
even though i will also be hurt by those heartless glances,
but also, i understand that at the same time gentle glances exist.
even though its like this, i still want to be here.
because her is, the place that i exist.
whats wrong with falling down?
because as long as i stand up again it'll be just fine.
if you look up at the sky after falling down,
the blue sky is also today, stretching limitlessly and smiles at me.
people shouldn't dwell on the past.
its enough to try your best in all that you're doing now.
trying hard to live on, without feelings, without tomorrow."

2009-02-02T08:45:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, feel like giving up?
Do you know, every baby is brought into this world by god.
if you have a chance to compensate, wat will you do with your life.

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Yesterday a butterfly
Came floating gently through the sky.
He soared up through the atmosphere
Then drifted close enough to hear.

I said, "I'd love to fly with you
And sail around the way you do.
It looks like it would be such fun
To fly up toward the summer sun.

But I have not your graceful charm.
I haven't wings, just these two arms.
I've been designed to walk around.
My human feet must touch the ground.

Then magically he spoke to me
and told me what his wish would be.

He said, "What I'd love most to do
Is walk upon God's Earth with you,
To squish its mud between my toes
Or touch my finger to my nose.

I'd love just once to walk around
With human feet to touch the ground,
But I have not two legs that swing,
I haven't arms, just these two wings."

And so we went our separate ways
In wonder and surprise.
For we'd both seen God's precious gifts
Through someone else's eyes.

2009-01-25T01:01:00.000+08:00

My duties for u are done.
As i look back, i seen what i have done
achieved,
helped,
given,
my concern for u still burns...

How many have i helped,
somehow most of them are christians =/
pass through hard times,
i endure and encourage,
a toyed toy will always be there for those who needs it
from here on i wish u happiness =)

Whatever our hands touch -
We leave fingerprints!
On walls, on furniture
On doorknobs, dishes, books.
There's no escape.
As we touch we leave our identity.

Wherever I go today
Help me leave heartprints!
Heartprints of compassion
Of understanding and love.

Heartprints of kindness
And genuine concern.
May my heart touch a lonely neighbor
Or a runaway daughter
Or an anxious mother
Or perhaps an aged grandfather.

Send me out today
To leave heartprints.
And if someone should say,
"I felt your touch,"
May they also sense the love
that is deep within my heart.

2009-01-23T10:41:00.001+08:00

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.

Mother Teresa

2009-01-22T11:26:00.004+08:00

What is love?
What is the funny and most absurd thing about it?
Do you know?
The funny thing about it is that there is no prior warning.
The absurd thing is that you don't know what it's playing.

Everytime i give a chance,
I always end up in wounds.

What we should afraid of are people who don't stand back up after falling.

In life, we learn alot somethings through face value, some deep in our hearts..
Even though one sided love is hard and painful, if u feel its worth it, u will not regret
For so much that i have endured, i have given my all

After awhile you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn that love doesn't mean possession
and company doesn't mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises and you begin to accept
your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of an adult not the grief of a child.
And you learn to build your roads today
because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans
and futures have ways of falling down in mid-flight.
After awhile you learn that even sunshine
burns if you get too much so you plant your
own garden and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure
that you really are strongand you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn... - by Veronica A. Shoffstall

2009-01-19T16:24:00.000+08:00

To stop my pace, and live in the present.
Even though there will be a day, that i will lose it,
isn't it great that i could pass on a dream that i had to give up.

People shouldn't dwell on the past. It's enough
to try your best in all that you are doing now.

2009-01-16T08:33:00.004+08:00

Letting go is not everything but the start...

To let go doesn't mean to stop caring;
It means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off...
It's the realization that I can't control another...
To let go is not to enable,
but to allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness,
which means the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try and change or blame another,
I can only change myself.
To let go is not to care for, but to care about.
To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their own outcomes.
To let go is not to be protective,
It is to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny, but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold, or argue,
but to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish the moment.
To let go is not to criticize and regulate anyone,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.
To let go is to fear less and love more.

Learning to let go is never easy even for the greatest people
Although the sea can't cover the sun, its still able to hide the sun from us...
Friends and family are loved ^^

2009-01-15T20:23:00.002+08:00

Even though i have been hurt before by those heartless glances....
This also helped me to understand that around me,
there still exists some gentle glances.

Therefore i definitely won't run away.
That's what i'll do. Definitely, always.

2009-01-12T10:14:00.004+08:00

Only a person with a story can create resplendent art works.
Only a person with a story can truely understand your feelings.
Only a person with a story can feel what you are feeling.
Only a person with a story can really care for u from deep under

If you can't forget, bury it deep in your heart
as one of your life time stories.
that quiet past will become a sustenance
you must know that you can't keep looking back
if you do, you will never improve

2009-01-11T15:53:00.005+08:00

Everytime you think that the world is against u, don be
Everytime you think you are left alone, don be
Everytime you feel depressed, don be
Everytime you feel like giving up, don be
Everytime you miss me, don be

hehe just joking about the last one =x
To someone, -there are always people around u that cares for u
in ur darkest moments,
the unseemingly light from a candle is enough
to light up ur life
lead u out of darkness
always Believe =)

A poem for sharing~

I believe in you
When you yell across the room
Or call someone else a name.

I believe in you
When you say you don't want to do
Something that you've been asked to do.

I believe in you
When you take the blame quietly,
Knowing it wasn't your fault--
Knowing that, probably, no one understands.

I believe in you
When you're bored and would rather be somewhere else
Having fun
But you buckle down and do your work anyway
And stay in school.

I believe in you
When the world around you makes bad choices--
But you don't.
I pray you never will

I love you, not for what you are on the outside,
But what you are on the inside.

I believe in you when you try,
When you don't try,
When you turn the world upside down
Or try to set it right.

I believe in you
For who you were, who you are,
And who I know that you can be.

Sometimes I see your good manners, your caring ways,
And I think what wonderful parents you must have
And how proud they'd be if they could see you right now.
Don't ever shame them, but live to make them proud.
Bring them up with you before the world.

I've seen you hurt, seen you care,
Seen you stand together as a unit,
Seen your hands:
Your little, growing hands,
Those hands will someday be left in charge of the world.
Learn your lessons well.
I believe in you,
And so do others, though you may not know it.
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Its not hard to believe in people
learn to trust them
deep inside they will learn to place their trust within u...

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Deeps of depth that i fell into
For thou shall not re surface
Warmth shall not be re-lighten
For all shall fade...
With the grass and the trees and the wind.

Just because i don say it out.. doesn't mean i have no feeling...
Living life like a walking corpse.

2009-01-09T16:54:00.004+08:00

Whats a sticky note?
Why am i a sticky note?

A sticky note is something,
where you can take and use it at your convenience,
and when you don't need it, you can rip it up and toss it out.

Its easy to rip up and it doesn't stick to your hand.
It doesn't leave a mark and can be forgotten easily.
Thus shall be that kind of sticky note boii.

Heres a poem...

I asked God to take away my pain.
God said, No.
'It is not for me to take away, but for you to give it up.'

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.
God said, No.
'Her spirit was whole, her body was only temporary.'

I asked God to grant me patience.
God said, No.
'Patience is a byproduct of tribulations; it isn't granted, it is earned.'

I asked God to give me happiness.
God said, No.
'I give you blessings. Happiness is up to you.'

I asked God to spare me pain.
God said, No.
'Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me.'

I asked God to make my spirit grow.
God said, No.
'You must grow on your own, but I will prune you to make you fruitful.'

I asked God for all things that I might enjoy life.
God said, No.
'I will give you life so that you may enjoy all things.'

I asked God to help me love others, as much as he loves me.
God said...
'Ahhhh, finally you have the idea.'

I always wonder why people hurt others can turn their backs and walk away
while those who are right are always left aside thinking about their wrongdoings which...
maybe nil.

2009-01-06T14:31:00.002+08:00

Life is precious
treasure it...

Happiness is always a by-product. It is probably a matter of temperament, and for anything I know it may be glandular. But it is not something that can be demanded from life, and if you are not happy you had better stop worrying about it and see what treasures you can pluck from your own brand of unhappiness.

Friends are hard to come by
True friends are harder...

And in the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter and the sharing of pleasures. For in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning and is refreshed.

Whatever you may get in life
Treasure Them Well ^^

2008-12-27T01:28:00.005+08:00

Do you sometimes think that live is against you in everyway?
What ever you do
What ever you think
It has never been right from the start.. perhaps i was too much of giving and lesser of taking.. perhaps i wasn't good enough.. perhaps their aims are high.. i will never know.
Though sometimes people ask why i treat ppl nicer then myself.. not being bhb but ya lols i also don know thats my nature ba =/

Giving is always better then taking
Once given do not wish for a return
For you willingly give it up.

No regrets- thats what i always wana do.. once let go, leave it and move on.
Although life hasn't been very fair to me, i learn that everyone has their own gifts which others may or may not wana learn or obtain that special and unique gift that each of us has.

Heres a story of what i meant...

Yesterday a butterfly
Came floating gently through the sky.
He soared up through the atmosphere
Then drifted close enough to hear.

I said, "I'd love to fly with you
And sail around the way you do.
It looks like it would be such fun
To fly up toward the summer sun.

But I have not your graceful charm.
I haven't wings, just these two arms.
I've been designed to walk around.
My human feet must touch the ground.

Then magically he spoke to me
and told me what his wish would be.

He said, "What I'd love most to do
Is walk upon God's Earth with you,
To squish its mud between my toes
Or touch my finger to my nose.

I'd love just once to walk around
With human feet to touch the ground,
But I have not two legs that swing,
I haven't arms, just these two wings."

And so we went our separate ways
In wonder and surprise.
For we'd both seen God's precious gifts
Through someone else's eyes.

- Never doubt urself, For you should be true to you, Takes great courage to stand up and fight. -

2008-12-24T00:21:00.006+08:00

Today or tonight... butt is actually.. this morning haha its 12.21am my clock time =p i just came back from the screening of StarGazers which i helped to act in one of the scenes as a crazy dancer? =x haha anyways after that i took a slow walk as i was climbing up the hill to my hse. i gazed upon the dark sky as it seems drowned by moisture. no star was visible. after a rather rough afternoon which i rather not remember and the day which has passed before, i became a cushion for relationships sadness and its bitter times. Although its natural for me since its not the first time, still it reminds me of the past and how things were never meant to be true throughout.

Patches and breakups are norm to my eyes for things that now last for less then 12hrs after a fight. i really don know how much more i can take it. o well lets just stop my ranting haha. I wana share wif u all a short story of a gift and its real meaning behind it.

Enjoy~

Gifts From The Heart

According to legend, a young man while roaming the desert came across a spring of delicious crystal-clear water. The water was so sweet he filled his leather canteen so he could bring some back to a tribal elder who had been his teacher. After a four-day journey he presented the water to the old man who took a deep drink, smiled warmly and thanked his student lavishly for the sweet water. The young man returned to his village with a happy heart.

Later, the teacher let another student taste the water. He spat it out, saying it was awful. It apparently had become stale because of the old leather container. The student challenged his teacher: "Master, the water was foul. Why did you pretend to like it?"

The teacher replied, "You only tasted the water. I tasted the gift. The water was simply the container for an act of loving-kindness and nothing could be sweeter."

I think we understand this lesson best when we receive innocent gifts of love from young children. Whether it's a ceramic tray or a macaroni bracelet, the natural and proper response is appreciation and expressed thankfulness because we love the idea within the gift.

Gratitude doesn't always come naturally. Unfortunately, most children and many adults value only the thing given rather than the feeling embodied in it. We should remind ourselves and teach our children about the beauty and purity of feelings and expressions of gratitude. After all, gifts from the heart are really gifts of the heart.

The end~

a gift isn't based on its value
however how many people actually notice this point? i am doubtful.
Covers are important it can fake the real value of something.
Covers/outer looks not important? thats what people always says but in their hearts which doesn't really mind it?
A nice person doesn't necessarily be Tall and good looking?
A bad person doesn't necessarily be Short and Fat looking?
This judgement will destroy our bonds that we may have.

-The ship in the rain would never see the horizon that approaches-

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.

Which of these rings a bell in ur head?

Be kind to others nonetheless.
For i weathered much more then what you could ever imagine.

2008-12-19T19:53:00.004+08:00

A little girl live with her parents on a mountain,
she and her parents picked ginseng for a living.
she didn't have any friends.
so she can only play with the deers and little rabbits.
then one day
A little boy wearing a green coat....
This is a story about Xiao hong and Xiao lu..

Xiao Hong and Xiao Lu play together everyday
And they became best friends.
They each cut a piece of their clothes
Buried it in the dirt and water it everyday.
Hoping that it will grow into another Xiao Hong and Xiao Lu
Xiao Hong's parents knows that Xiao Hong plays with a little boy wearing a green coat everyday.
They got suspicious, so when Xiao Lu didn't notice, they told Xiao Hong to Tie a string on Xiao Lu's clothes.
After it got dark, Xiao Hong's parents followed the string and found out that Xiao Lu is a thousand year old ginseng.
So they pick Xiao Lu up with it's roots and sold it for a good price.
Since then, Xiao Hong's family became wealthy.
But Xiao Hong will never be happy...
Beacuse she lost her best friend.

2008-12-17T08:16:00.006+08:00

If the limit of love is ten thousand years,
I'll try my best to let it continue forever,
If a moment can become forever,
i am willing to abandon everything to be by your side,
too many separations and farewells,
are seemingly at hand,
Countless people and bystanders that are dangerous,
right now i miss your confidence,
this promise i make will never change
for the love are form by petals of blood
after countless hardships,
i will try my best to let it continue forever
to make it last forever and stay by your side.

2008-12-12T13:02:00.001+08:00

I find it tough too;
to let go to move on
to carve a new path to seek a new route
this sea is too broad, like the endless horizons
and i so faint at one far end
on the sands i saw your footprints,
then you must have been here to look for me,
i know.
till i see you once more
thats when i learn to walk again
without feeling so...

- Dedicated from someone to someone

2008-12-11T15:29:00.000+08:00

If two cannot unite, both will weep
The plum flower remains the same, yet the wood has a change of heart.
Rides unbridled, whips the horse to hasten it.
With friends apart, but they still share the same moonlight.

We only appear grand infront of others, but who can see the loneliness in me?
although i am standing here in the vague lights,
but my heart is already like the grass and wood.

You said, from the riddle you saw the sigh of my heart.
I asked you, how did you solve my riddle?
You said that you could see the secret from the bottom of my heart.

2008-11-06T10:53:00.003+08:00

What is a family?
what does it really mean to u in ur heart?

One that never experience such hurt would never understand.
For being love you wouldn't expect anything in return.

enjoy urself is all that i can say.. for the time spent together,
have given u everything, love and care,
although it was all a joke in the end,
its still crafted like a doll deep down.

Seeing you as fine as u are,
i would feel happy for u when ever where ever u are,
although it may just be a fling on ur part
its fine.

no human would nt feel love and despair,
how did he feel when u left
do you really think that he would be alright?
smiling as you ur shadow gaze upon him.

why
why didn't you realise it sooner
whenever u see me i would be smiling
whenever u see me i would be happy
even the simplest thing can make me smile for hours
saying that one doesn't mind
there isn't a human like that...

to open a closed door deep down..
is to watch the sunrise of a new year together..
for the warmth would treasure u.

Loss and hardship.. its useless to just think about them..
it just that as much as someone think i may be a fool,
as much as someone may think that its worth to trick someone,
would you?

All i really wanted is to make and see the people around me happy and smiling..

2008-10-22T09:33:00.002+08:00

This is the 2nd week of sch.. its been fun and also stressful haha.. sadly one of my lecturer is leaving SP for her future work life.. i wish her all the best ^^ its been fun having u around and hope that you would come back to SP from time to time have a chat with us =D apart from that.. someone has been bugging me to blog haha so here i am =/ although now i am in class haha having break o.0! below is a song that i like.. i actually heard the chinese version but this is the original jap version translated into english. song titled

-"i am here waiting for u" or sth like that haha. i find that the lyrics are meaningful thats why i am sharing with you guys and gals ~.~

Baby boy, I’m here, I won’t go anywhere, I’ll be waiting for you
You know dat I love you, and that’s why you don’t need to worry
No matter how far apart we are, my love won’t change
You know what I mean?
I’m waiting for you (waiting for you)

Me, so clumsy, and you, far away
With me still unable to tell you how I felt, you went away
Now you remain only in my album
These days we can only meet via the airwaves, but I can’t see your smile
Your warmth, the smell of your hair; as the days went by
My thirst for you was unquenched, and I searched desperately for a trace of you
On the road I often walked down with you, the only sound now was my footsteps
But enough of that, how are you? Are you eating properly?
Dammit, I just can’t say it
I’ll send you another letter from me soon

I saw you on the sand dunes in Kamakura; the words I wanted to say were swallowed up in the waves
This is really painful; I’m a guy…so why won’t the words come?
Do you remember? When I was at karaoke with you
The words to the song I picked were on the screen
The truth was, I wanted to tell you
The day we got together, just the two of us, for the first time
We played around like we met by chance
I wanted to say “I can’t forget your smile”
But I got pretty off-topic, huh? You get what I want to say, right?
Shit, I’ve run out of space to write
Sorry, next time I’ll definitely send it

If I was richer, if I had a more serious job
If I’d been able to suffer through everything, I know I could…
But please, don’t get the wrong idea, I don’t want to make you lonely, but
I’m busy so I can’t really talk, but
Baby believe kore wa all for our future
But to be honest, I want to see you right now, I want to hold you right now
Now there’s nobody sitting in that seat where you used to sit next to me…
Well, that’s no biggie, that wasn’t what I wanted to say
It’s probably too late, but I’ll pour out the words I’ve been wanting to say all this time, and send it to you, my unsent letter

Baby girl, I’m here, I won’t go anywhere, I’ll be waiting for you
You know dat I love you, and that’s why you don’t need to worry
No matter how far apart we are, my love won’t change
You know what I mean?
I’m waiting for you (waiting for you)

Baby boy, I’m here, I won’t go anywhere, I’ll be waiting for you
You know I love you, and that’s why you don’t need to worry
No matter how far apart we are, my love won’t change
Now I can come out and say it
I don't eva wanna let you go

2008-09-25T11:47:00.002+08:00

One day my friend intro-ed this song to me...although i am not a chirstian but i find this song lyrics ... lets say... touched the bottom of my heart...

Dear God
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A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
Purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again, oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
And all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
When hope begins to fade...

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
Hope is hard to find

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again
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Anyways i just recieved my notice about my results haha for the first sem >.>

ok la nt as bad as i feared.. at least managed to maintain close to 3.5 sem average GPA
will work harder !!!! jy to all my friends too ^^

2008-08-26T10:20:00.002+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh finally holiday XD

first week of holiday was terror lol gt 2 test and went to pulau ubin~

ok la since i couldn't ride the bike so well i decided to walk on that day but still i manage to catch up to them and also took a few nice pictures along the way.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/29854090@N05/ << my small photo gallery haha some photos that i uploaded may nt be as good as others but ya... slowly.. it makes perfection ^^

2008-08-06T07:45:00.003+08:00

>.> wana say tired? ... cannot
>.> wana say stress? ... cannot
>.> wat can i say? ... haha

ok i going nuts haha sometimes kids are the best people to be with. their innocence would just make you find them cute. Wheres my point of view? do you even bother? sometimes u just wash it away so simply. i got nth to say

JY those doing nec hahaz

2008-07-30T07:23:00.003+08:00

Whatever i did for that fateful day why does everyone think its wrong?
Learn to find the merit in people other than finding faults...

Sometimes i feel like theres a big barrier inbetween us.

Your single expression could be the change of all.

2008-07-29T10:55:00.001+08:00

Scolding and all sorts related are not always correct.. while having not to think of such consequences.
Words hurt feelings hurt more
friends don treat you like one
What would you do?
a pure feeling would just spread like angel wings to protect those he cares about.

Everyone needs encouragement,
But why do we often hesitate to shower compliments
in every child theres a good and bad side
Sound out to the angel within
and the best qualities will surface.

Resources used wrongly will become waste,
Waste used correctly can become resources.
Appreciation is a powerful force.
From a single word of encouragement would change the life of a person.

2008-07-27T21:49:00.002+08:00

Finally done my NDP video haha looks not bad except for some parts need to edit.. wait for mediacorp give us close up of the show.. tiredddddddd >.>

o well haha heard mao, KA, Ray, Faith had fun today haha although it rained but... shower of joy eh? lols =x

Always look at the bright side of life wor my friends ^^

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Weather is not very good these days,
take care of urselves k? =)

2008-07-27T10:11:00.005+08:00

May you have the best of times in the event that i known u...
just yearning for rememberence

some words don have to be said,
to be communicated;
because they used their hearts,
to listen to their needs;

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Time is the hardest to endure
Letting it tick
Letting it move
Only to look back
and say..
Its History.
you don know how much tears,
you don know how much given,
you will never know how i feel;

2008-07-26T22:19:00.002+08:00

Sunday tml~ o well didn't go for NDP today haha holiday from NDP
finally can rest~
Just came back from grandma house help her fixed her lights haha its a tiring job o.o~

Hope my friends tml have the best of times ^_^ though i couldn't be there my heart shall follow haha

Enjoy ^^
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When you can love someone her points would be 100
When you can't love her anymore her points would be 0
When will it ever be balanced?

2008-07-26T00:29:00.002+08:00

Today was my friend samantha bday!! haha

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SAM!!!

we have been friends for more then a year haha its been fun and torture =x oops haha rmb to have fun today think u still singing ur lungs out =D

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a day has not pass since i missed u. i would hold u close and not let u go if possible ever again.

2008-07-13T10:02:00.001+08:00

so bored >.> just came back from ndp ytd tired haha but it was fun the kids are so high!!! the fireworks fire like water haha u guys should have seen it =x

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since ur hands, mine has lingered

2008-05-12T10:37:00.002+08:00

Its been a while.. while my feelings have not waver since then.
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ahhhhhhhhh so long never blog haha Hi ver! ^^ long time no seei been busy with school stuff so many things to do.. got sch magazine and gt my club stuff haha recruit so many people!!! more then 100 for each of them.. happy at first but then too many people also no good ma need select. Last week stayed back a few days to help out in the training of the freshmen for bowlers. ok la quite fun but i tink some are scared of me cause i call them by their names =x
i am kind and patient =x wahahahaha~ k la don crap liao now in class later teacher catch me i die =x

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i am like an empty vessel waiting for the rough seas of wrath to tip me over. i am like an empty bottle floating in the never ending stream
please don change for i won't know how to react.
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To love is to give up things that you love most.
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2008-04-26T21:17:00.000+08:00

SLOW DANCE

Have you ever watched kids

On a merry-go-round?

Or listened to the rain

Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?

Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down.

Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.

The music won't last.

Do you run through each day

On the fly?

When you ask How are you?

Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done

Do you lie in your bed

With the next hundred chores

Running through your head?

You'd better slow down

Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.

The music won't last.

Ever told your child,

We'll do it tomorrow?

And in your haste,

Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,

Let a good friendship die

Cause you never had time

To call and say,'Hi'

You'd better slow down.

Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.

The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere

You miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry through your day,

It is like an unopened gift....

Thrown away.

Life is not a race.

Do take it slower

Hear the music

Before the song is over.

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read it

think about it

2008-04-09T12:18:00.002+08:00

long time no post liao haha was busy wif stuff..

this is going to be a long and tiring year for me T.T o well jia you! to all my friends and me! =)

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love is not being able to reject
love is not being able to protect
love is not being able to attain freedom

2008-03-19T20:44:00.001+08:00

if my star falls
will you be the one to catch it?

when the sky falls
will anyone be of help?

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pls don lose our friendship for it hurts

2008-03-05T20:29:00.002+08:00

On a beach by the sky
Down a path between the stars
Kindred flowers perfume
A heart in search of dreams

I was born to amuse the angels
On the last day of summer
Ten hours before fall
On this loveliest of days

Dare you loose yourself
To drown in my sacred pool
As the world falls down
A troubling heaven awakes

2008-02-29T19:45:00.003+08:00

the fact i will be comforted
just by having you by my side
you quietly taught me that, didn't you?
now that we have lost our wings,
the moon's melody continues to fall on our backs
as we gaze up at the ever shining stars
continue to believe
not to let go of our hands yesterday
only to have the moon watches over our sleep
silently watching over u..

2008-02-24T16:26:00.003+08:00

Love is a symbol of eternity. It wipes out all sense of time, destroying all memory of a beginning and all fear of an end.

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sometimes is not that i don wana understand u but we our selves have to be conscious of our own. not everything i can abide by what you say . its just that sometimes its to much for me to handle. but of course i do value our friendship =)

2008-02-19T23:24:00.002+08:00

there are things i don wana lose
thats why i hold them tightly
there are things i don wana share
thats why i tink too deep
can't blame it on feelings
as its not at fault
can't blame it on people
as their not at fault
who else is there
but myself..

2008-02-14T14:06:00.002+08:00

i don know where u stand

i don know what to do

~lost~

2008-02-10T16:33:00.000+08:00

i will not drag this on
i will not let this continue
for i know its impossible to attain
when tomorrow comes, your tears will dry
your heart will follow colour
for you with your faint smile
whenever you need me i am here
the full moon will wash away your facade
my song with its red words

never be infront of you in true form

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sorry..

2008-02-09T22:17:00.000+08:00

3rd day of chinese new year? o.o haha hope everyone enjoyed it =)

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deep into the snow it stays ... numbed

2008-02-06T01:34:00.000+08:00

words won't be broken what is said
love is free
but you must be happy
thats the only condition behind its curtains

you are not wrong ..

feelings buried deep down
back into the chest in which it dwells

2008-02-05T22:49:00.000+08:00

just want you to be happy thats all...

that matters to me

2008-02-04T21:58:00.000+08:00

theres one thing that i will never achieve
yet it eludes me always

theres always the dream that i can't get
yet it always reflect the truth

the truth is there to show what is truth
the truth left untold

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mixed up inside..

2008-02-02T09:43:00.000+08:00

jealousy?
i wonder

fantasy?
i wonder

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sometimes i try to be unconcerned but it still affects me on the inside ..

2008-02-01T13:22:00.000+08:00

somethings are just too far for one to reach
somethings are just too close without one noticing
somethings are just too near that one misses
somethings are just not to be

there are always things that you wan yet can't achieve
there are always things that you wan yet can't get
there are always things that you wan yet don know how

to be urself
which i have been
letting go of some precious moments
giving happiness to others with my blessing
leaving nothing behind me, giving all away...

2008-01-28T23:05:00.000+08:00

you can throw
you can kick
you can tease
you can step
you can squash
you can play
you can bully
basically you can do anything u wan
for its only an object for leisure ..

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i wish my classmates all the best for tml's webp test!!! good luck!! haha

2008-01-25T16:30:00.001+08:00

I'm a pig.
a Very cute Pig

2008-01-25T16:27:00.000+08:00

Thank you for being with me :)

2008-01-24T19:51:00.000+08:00

moving on without regrets
protecting those close to you
loving them as your friends
lending a helping hand when needed
not taking any back in return
this is what i became

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you made me who i am today
*~Thank You~*
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-Me-

although many have made me inferior
although many have made me not worth
although many have made me shed crystals
although many have made me go through many
standing alone in blizzard winds
never will sunlight light up the inner self.

2008-01-24T14:49:00.000+08:00

u can say anything
u can say everything
u can do anything
u can do everything
u can think anything
u can think everything
only that i would not concur
no looks no talent no fun
is what u mean and say
endless giving for no rewards..
for eternitee

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>.<

.. Good luck to all those having exams =)

2008-01-23T00:54:00.000+08:00

inside is hard to know
outsides does not show
what i mean u wouldn't know
deepening abyss of thoughts
overflows without bounds
as u smile
the soil around me piles up
till i never see u again

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sleepy~ >.<
sometimes is so hard to know

2008-01-21T14:24:00.000+08:00

i should keep reminding myself !
that what i know
what i see
what u mean
is not always the truth.

2008-01-20T21:57:00.000+08:00

sometimes when i don meant it one way
it oftens happen the other

since when did i turn numb i don know
my concern for u is pure
silence of the night
as stars shine in the sky
my heart drizzle..
forever shall ur existence stay within me.

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sorry abt today though i know its not u who i have to say to. i said already..
i bid u a lovely night =)

2008-01-19T22:53:00.000+08:00

sometimes when one don wana know one just know it
try not to get jealous as it will only lead to suspicion and pain
being secluded or choosing the path of solitude
compressed feelings and closing of the heart
pierced by millions progressing as time pass

its an art
to feel yet not to show
to speak yet not the unhurting
never revealing
silently caring
silently listening
silently protecting

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still deciding if i wana go for the course its ex of course T.T o well wait after my test finish first tml not sure if going out study not see first ba not really the type who can study at home haha abit tired though through all that i been through this few days but still i am myself =)

2008-01-19T09:21:00.000+08:00

sometimes is not that i wana act this way
is all because of my feelings to protect
although it seems i don have a mind of my own
somethings hurts more than what it seems
giving way to u is just my nature
letting u choose ur path is my choice
never has it been a choice of mine
only to see u joyful...

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just updated oops website at 2am + haha well is not that i stayed till so late i just slept from 11 to 2 than woke up did work till abt 7.30 and slept till 8.40 haha nvm its not important anyways =)
i wish my friends all the best for the coming exams hope we all do well ^^

2008-01-18T14:08:00.000+08:00

Be happy, ok?

Cause in your memories, there's existence of me.

() ()
(._.)
(n n).

2008-01-15T07:26:00.001+08:00

How many forms can love take out there in the world?
we all live with our own burdens to bear.
as family, friends and comrades, all sought the same goal.
because of their support, i was made into who i am today.
Now i can finally see that i was living oblivious to
the important things that had always been right next to me.
None of us were born to live alone.
And so, since we are fortunate enough to exist in this world,
if everybody has to say goodbye,
until then, i want to fill your days with smiles.

Only smiles =)

2008-01-14T22:18:00.000+08:00

你给的体温
幸福的气氛
他在你身边
睡得好安稳
是你太残忍
还是我太笨
这样的容忍
有点太牺牲
不习惯你的眼神
在风中不安的变冷
离开的时候是过程
我为爱狂奔
每次当爱从心痛启
我明白等待背后是伤痕
为了一个人
每夜不熄灯
爱一个人爱得透彻
忘不了爱走过的旅程
我依然相信幸福的可能
只有一个人
我愿意去等
在离开了以后
还会心疼
她给的拥抱
幸福的气氛
你在他身边
笑得好天真
是我爱太深
还是太单纯
这样的转身
有点太牺牲

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i just wana tell u .. i understand
and today i bowled until my skin tear ! lol pain >.<
o well haha tc

2008-01-08T13:44:00.000+08:00

being through and letting it slide
one comes to many conclusions
including seclusion from the world
letting you go is all he can do

letting go and leaving the best
hurting himself over again
what he does best...

2008-01-04T09:15:00.000+08:00

Kaii Kaii very hardworking wor. always do assignments.

Rest ok?

T.T she never tell me her bloggie T.T

2008-01-03T11:57:00.000+08:00

T.T flood of assignment haha don know if i can survive.. will miss my friends those who are close to me is what are important. i don wana separate i hope we will remain in contact haha. jiayou guys in all our assignment and test ^^ i wana try to help my friends as much as i can but theres an extend to the amount i can help.

u will do well in IA de have faith =)
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under wraps of the deep blue sky..
keeping itself under shadows of darkness
forever lying there

You are the best thing that has happen to my world

2008-01-03T11:56:00.003+08:00

TSK TSK TSK

2008-01-03T11:56:00.001+08:00

ya. indeed. crazy. why u so smart ah? sk

2008-01-03T11:55:00.001+08:00

stop being so clever la

2008-01-03T11:53:00.000+08:00

idiot sk

2007-12-29T08:54:00.000+08:00

really left 3 weeks?!?! sianz need separate from class. some say will miss me but nonetheless i also do we been such good friends for the past year its sad that we can't be together .. but i still wish and hope that our friendship will last throughout my life.. esp..
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somethings you know for it to be a fact
but you would still try to deny it
for which you think you are right
being yourself and thinking for yourselves

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it has never been a smooth journey
but nevertheless not giving up is one positive traits
dragging the history and embracing the future =)

2007-12-28T13:18:00.000+08:00

i don know leh now very messy
things being unclear
i can only sit and watch?
luck in that field has never been true
always come to the verge
and plunge into the abyss

2007-12-28T13:16:00.003+08:00

...

2007-12-27T11:14:00.000+08:00

today going to teacher's house for class gathering haha hope it will be fun =p
actually i don feel so well today >.< abit sick? lol haha but still i will give my best for the day ^^
you can't hesitate when the time comes when you have to give it all you've got.
protecting you for time that may wash away our memories

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before i go on..
neva been good in rela....
shatter glass bits..

2007-12-26T06:28:00.000+08:00

i am who i am
what happen in the past will never be different from whats going to happen soon lol >.<

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misguided this christmas? or only for the new year..
things that you don wan it to happen.. the more it will happen =/

2007-12-25T22:06:00.000+08:00

as much as it may hurt
endure

as much as it may disturb
ignore

as meaningful as it may seem
listen

as void as a cold wall
encourage

as feelings are stoned
numb

2007-12-24T01:02:00.000+08:00

Today went to my friend's church mates Christmas gathering haha at first reach there abit blur cause all i don know except for my friend but they were quite friendly and we introduced ourselves. i am actually impressed that some of them actually remembered my name throughout the whole event! haha

quite fun overall and thanks both hy and nut nut for the presents ^^ *hugs good to know both of you haha we did ice breaking got sanpan.. lighthouse! haha i became a boat and swim around >.< than dress up christmas tree we won the most relax team cause we sat on the ground to do LOL.
ok la haha my first christmas celebration in 17 years =D FUN! lol

Merry christmas to you all ^^

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actually letting it loose is not a bad idea .. no point thinking so much rite haha. if theres a path where people are destined to meet they will naturally cross paths =p this is what i read from a part of the bible? not so sure cause when i read it below got write from which chap lol i wish you all the best in the up coming year =)

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like a toy
played and discarded
thats just a destiny
giving itself up
for other's happiness
never being remembered..

2007-12-21T12:18:00.000+08:00

even though sometimes it may not be me but it all ends up to be..

haha i don know why i love to be of service to people like my friends. in bbq i always want to be the one cooking =/ than can serve them haha i feel happy? its fun for me and i enjoy it lots ^^
o well although too much is not as good i am fortunate to have such enjoyable friends. i thank god for that =)

sometimes when i read the bible it gives me an interesting view on things .. which in turn i learn more haha..

2007-12-21T00:41:00.000+08:00

today woke up late for meeting >.< haha than rush out of house forgetting my script to draw storyboards .. o well sometimes i am so blur .. had a fun afternoon haha than came back home at 4+ abit tired these few days never slept early

Christmas is 5 days away! Joy to you all ^^

have lots of fun =)

2007-12-17T23:37:00.000+08:00

argh! haha today i tried making a rubik cube turning meaning solving it in 3d haha but its animation has a lot of errors >.< i only manage to do a 10second fast one in like 1 hour haha. o well tml must complete my 3d assignment 2 !! i still find my chars cute haha we shall see the end product maybe i will upload it here ^^

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giving up is not found in our dictionary
nothing is impossible if we work together!

2007-12-17T00:21:00.000+08:00

lol.. whenever u are like this ..

a thousand knives daggered into silence..

you will never know unless i say

2007-12-16T16:12:00.000+08:00

heart being transcendent
feelings become translucent
body becomes transparent

what matters is not what happens
is what has happens and what will
numbed by feelings

it doesn't matter how
is just the what

embracing you and the future
what more is there to ask for

Wish a joyous Christmas to my friends ^^
and u =)

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finally its the holidays but it doesn't feel like it.. so bored haha still need do a few more assignments .. hope i can finish in time. sometimes i feel inferior to people around me.
not being able to be open and let lose the stress kept up in us.

=p

numbed

2007-12-13T07:58:00.001+08:00

compressing everything in my life
its ok
everything will be fine
dispensible
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0.o hahaz

history may repeat itself
but we must strive forward
never giving in to allure
ever strong against challenges
we shall me

2007-12-12T07:51:00.001+08:00

as much as it hurts..
it heals as time passes..

as busy as you are..
time would allow u to rest..

never will it rain forever..
in your heart and mine..

going to the edge of the world..
only to realize that you're special..

allowing you to roam free..
throughout my lands..

brushing through the grass ..
with your ever loving hands..

till such a day come..
i won't be whole.

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haha raining sia now i feel like sleeping!!! >.<

i know someone is still sleeping i envy! haha nvm wo bu chi chu de =D

2007-12-11T08:27:00.000+08:00

being through alot would cause you to understand somethings that normal people won't understand. being able to understand causes people to give in too much too.. its really great to be able to find a special thing or a special person...

helping.. forgiving..hahaz thats something worth pondering hahaz

tc .. =)

2007-12-10T08:19:00.000+08:00

feeling so tired now >.< wana ask its both i think =p

anyways i just finish my 2nd 3d animation for oops which i don think is up to my standard yet as some parts of maya i have yet to learn and some things i don know how to animate properly so it caused some discrepancies in my work =/ ..

jyjy to all in work and play ^^

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knowing u has been the best thing that has happened to me in my life .. thank you =)

2007-11-23T12:03:00.000+08:00

aiya.. be more forgiving and big hearted? haha i wonder ...

>.< stress? maybe haha teacher ask me do many many things that i have to learn myself.. things that i don know i have to self study.. adds on to my work which is like mountain high haha
i wonder if i will get scolded today because of the oops website which it wasn't my responsibility

2007-11-22T21:46:00.000+08:00

do you know
where you are going to..
do you like the things life is showing you

do you get what u are hoping for..
when u open the door
theres nothing waiting for u..

theres a future in sight however far
now looking back at old plans..
we let so many dreams slip through our hands

why must we wait so long before we see
how hard are the answers to the questions can be..

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*you*

2007-11-22T12:07:00.000+08:00

i prefer to know the truth..

when u do somethings.. it gives off the wrong kind of signal..

o well i don know if u do read or not

i..am..just..tired... from all these..

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sun shine
star glow
moon reflect
sea waves
wind blows
my heart stops..

2007-11-18T18:57:00.000+08:00

even though i can only walk slowly..
even though obstacles may hinder me..
even without your support..
even without the support of time..

i will move forward..
no matter how u treat me..

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yay my first animation video is out on the school mag webbie! haha
its not so good la but its ok for the first time using maya to render haha
now working on the 2nd video >.< should i say stressful?

2007-11-15T13:36:00.000+08:00

sometimes things are not as you wan or they don occur as u wish.
besides letting a person have his or her way is hindering us?
my feelings are mixed up in my mind. maybe i am over concern perhaps haha
my teacher expect me to finish like 3 animations in the span of 2 weeks ... even my 3d teacher says that its impossible haha don know la i just do my best first lo wish for the best >.<

hope you get well soon too !! ^^

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besides, doing so would make me numb..

*nAnKuraNaisa*

live onwards

nAnKuraNaisa